Currently Relapse By Eminem see related

I am fucking struggling. With my medications, my depression, my emotions. One day I feel great and I'm sure I have the answers but I never have the courage to see it though. I give up and do bad stuff again. It breaks down everything I've built.

Also, I'm in love.

She is the most amazing girl ever. Most amazing person ever. Every kiss leaves me wanting more and more and to always hold her forever. She makes me feel so good and happy. I've never felt this about anyone before. We hang out and snuggle and kiss and she gives me gifts. She's so romantic.

Problem: She has a boyfriend. She says she likes me and I know its obvious that I love her...I wouldn't ask her to leave her bf. But he lives far away. What is she doing kissing me and acting like we're dating if she has a bf? It hurts me because I want her all to my oddy knocky. I'm afrid to talk to her about it because I'm worried she'll be like "No I wasn't leading you on, that was just a friendly kiss" and stuff. I don't kiss my other friends on the lips and everything else. No one likes it that I am in love with a girl. So I can't talk about it to anyone. Idk what to do. I'm so lost. I just want her. I love her, I always have since I first saw her years ago. Oh she is all that I can think about. I'm so tormented and haunted. I told Sarah about this and shes just freaked out and thinks I'm gross for liking a girl. Ugh. I can never have what I want anyway. I should know that by now and give up. But she keeps giving some somthing more to hold on to everytime I decide to let it go. She gives me just enough to survive! I'm dying here!

I love her more than your mother loves you!  

Eugh. Work. I fucking hate Kohls.