Currently Pygmy By Chuck Palahniuk see related

For the past two nights, I've dreamed about my lady love. I dreamed that I was Harley and she was Ivy. Which is kinda like how it is in real life. I dreamed that we were making out and about to have sex, and we broke into this building together. It was amazing. Then I woke up. Sad. Because I know it's just a dream. And that's all it'll ever be. She kept talking about her bf last night, so I know she'll never leave him for me. She gave me another gift last night and a kiss. What is she doing? Does she think that just cuz we're both bi that we can kiss and stuff and just be friends? No. I love her. I want her all to my self! We'd be so perfect. We both love HQ and Bman and comics and fairy tales and I could go on and on.

Why does she act like she likes me when she won't be with me? It's really depressing me. I can never have the one I want. I'm such an idiot. I should know better than think someone can love a fuck up like me. Meh.

I can't tell her how I feel because I know she won't be with me. I'd rather still be her best friend than make everything all awkward. No use fucking up a friendship over a love that will never be.

Damnit.